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Thursday, February 22, 2007

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 22:28:43 GMT

i havent updated for so long.
havent been bothered really. i mean, i AM busy but some how i always manage to find time for OTHER stuff besides the things im supposed to be busy about.
sigh.

a very happy new year to everyone.
both the REAL new year and the CHINESE new year. XD
yeSs i know its late. sorry.

lately im entering a period of emotional disturbance. i think there's just too much going on. its pretty scary but im aware of this fact, so yea i try not to let it get in the way of things.but there are a few people i really wanna thank for listening to all my stories.
thanks to ivan and ken especially.
a lot of thanks and thanks and sincere gratitude.
i really appreciate all that youve done.
from the bottom of my heart.

and then.
lets hope i'll survive this upcoming exam.
~~and stop thinking abt all those times.~~

hope everyone's well and happy.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 22:00:37 GMT

erm. just to let those of you who bother reading this know, im still alive.
just dead busy.
like every single day of my life.
will update very soon. :)

pls take care for now.

i cant believe its the end of module already. so fast. this long awaited update is finally here. but anyway im missing the Respiration doctors a bit already. like really. i cant believe i got so attached to them over the last three weeks. even though i know theyre not gonna read this (ever) im still gonna mention them. so yea here goes.

dan, john, simon, anna, nick, akesh + tareq, norah
i will miss you. loads. thanks to all of you for making the best three weeks ever.

esp dan, john, (simon), norah.

and so heres comes the progrssion to surgery. i dont think i'll get another team like that. oh man. i feel sad already. but i really hope my surgical teams will be good. and will be just as interesting. :)

updates with photos.
anna+jeff+ash's 21st

APPLE's 21st in Liverpool

drinks and dinner with my firm

basically its another two weeks before xmas break. i will be going to austria for New Year and hope to have a really great Christmas in England (for the first time in 6 years!). ta for now:)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 11:33:48 GMT

its surprising how a person's mood can fluctuate so much within days, hours, minutes, and even seconds. like sam said, just one word from a person can put you high above the clouds, or straight down a bottomless pit.

and since two nights ago. ive been floating. gloating rather, at the thought of everything. i will be planning my journey. even that thought seems pretty far away. im starting to count towards end of module. start of path week. i cant wait. cant wait. CANT WAIT.

i love my cousin. cuz hes opening up to me. hahaha. or rather, im digging news outta him.
and he sends me nice songs.
and i miss him tOoOoooo.

perhaps i shall update with some pics. with what i did when i was on night shift last weekend. (i did put them up on facebook so if youve seen them, you dont hafta see again) A&E was really boring the 3 nights when i was on call. so we entertained ourselves with Scrabble and photo taking and a late night movie in Leceister Sq.

tada!
i will update with more photos from birthday parties soon.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 20:49:46 GMT

the past few weeks have been so hectic that i kinda forgot the people who care abt me and those whom i care abt. somehow, the dim sum lunch today just brought back floods of memories of people and things. and i suddenly realised how much ive missed those i love.

lets start.
i miss those times in kbox, whoever they were with;
i miss the anxiety of sitting in "i-just-got-my-license-and-im-proud-of-it" friends' cars, whoever was driving;
i miss the frantic search of worthy clothes and bags and accessories in sales in the midst of a hundred other kiasu singaporeans;
i miss crashing at NUS, watching eager freshers of my age (and possibly older) skipping in excitement to lecture halls, feeling darn old in the meantime;
i miss drinking in CHIJMES while watching the most uninteresting game of football on big screen;
i miss walking around aimlessly for hours on the same street (namely orchard road) trying to find something worth buying that is within my narrow budget and high expectations;
i miss cabbing home with a familiar singlish speaking driver at midnight, not wanting to think abt the late night charges at the same time;
i miss sitting in cineplex drinking milkshakes and smoothies while waiting for the movie;
i miss being able to speak english and chinese AND singlish WITHOUT being self conscious of how i sound;
i miss the great barley water with beancurd skin at the restaurant-i-cant-rmb-the-name-of;
i miss laksa, chicken rice, nasi lemak, roti prata - basically kopitiam.
sigh. too many.

i miss everyone from home.
i miss everyone from concord, ok maybe not EVERYONE from there, but some special people from there.

anyway. ive been meeting people that i havent seen in a long time recently. its weird how i just bump into/meet them at the most unexpected times. becky, trang, kuang, nick, mo, jacky, michelle, susan... ok not that many now that ive named them.

sigh. 8:30 start again tomorrow. i shall stop skiving like today. i will be up for that.
yes. I WILL.
nites.

PS: pls tag in tagboard.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 18:06:03 GMT

HELLO! did everyone miss me? alright. i kinda realised that im someone who actually cant live without a blog (yea thats how sad i am). well actually thats just number one of the ten billion reasons for coming back on xanga. then i found out that there are people who actually read my xanga cuz theyve been asking for updates (so why ddnt you guys make your presence known everytime you come?!).

anyway. lifes normal as usual. except that ive entered the clinical year of my FAVOURITE course. oh and that i came back last night to find a flooded bathroom (like literally, even the carpets outside the door was soaked). ~~probably because some idiot ddnt realise that the water level was getting kinda high while showering?~~ um. then there are the new students moving into the halls cuz school term officially starts tomorrow (even though i started 3 weeks already). oh right. and then my point was to tell you guys why i should stop going out, cuz everytime i do that, i eat too much and that makes me feel sick. not to mention that it makes me wallet FLAT.

so i had a 4.5 day weekend cuz we were finally given a damn break by the school after 2.5 weeks of "intensive" training on our practical skills. i think it wasnt the break's fault cuz i started going out before that anyway. erm lets do a run through.

last fri: haagen daz + movie (THE BLACK DHALIA - did anyone watch that? cuz i ddnt get it) + dinner with marvin.
last sat: vivian's birthday at this korean restaurant.
last sun: dinner of red snapper near jasmin's place.
mon: andrea's birthday at kobe jones.
tue: FINALLY a day of rest. (cuz i had OSCE - basically its a test - on wed morning)
wed: oxf circus shopping + dinner at chinatown with irene
thurs: oxf circus shopping + dinner + drinks at rubyblue with edwin, irene, viv
fri: dinner at chinatown + haagen daz with edwin, jennshuin, des, eeling, yeosoon
PLUS another late dinner with zd, kuang and feiyu.
sat: convent garden shopping + dinner with irene again
sun (today): lunch + movie (CHILDREN OF MEN) with jas & singwei

was that a packed week or what? and i think my account has really got a very very very negative balance. and surprisingly my weight hasnt gone up. YET. we shall see.

oh. oh. oh. i woke up at 8 to go to church today! i went to a sunday service at All Souls. it was such a great experience! i love the hymns. wow. and i saw some people that i know. then i met Becky tOo! sometimes i wonder why someone like her can be so devoted to church. a cambridge graduate who took 2/3 yrs off to volunteer full-time at church. wow. its like. WOW. but anyway, my point is that everyone should go to church (if you havent already) to experience service once or sth. its a really different experience. plus you get meet a lot of really friendly people. :):):)

yep. and just to finish off. i shall put up a few pics.

oh man.. i really dun wanna start my Pathology week nx week. a week full of lectures and tutorials. sigh. and then the real work starts on 2nd Oct. haha cant wait to go into action! FULL action. im starting with Medical Assessment Unit, which is sth like A&E. oh man. i hope they let us do blood taking, cuz i really duno how to do that yet! ahahha. i need more practice on real people. haha. right anyway. will do another update soon.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 21:16:46 GMT

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Friday, December 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 04:31:35 GMT

and with another year gone.
heres wishing everyone the very best in the new year ahead.

happy new year:)

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 23:18:12 GMT

first term gone.
how fast time flies. pics pics pics update.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 21:02:18 GMT

time for an update. its back to the grey chilly windy shitass days in london. pleeaaase. save me. but for now i think its ok. cuz days are fun. :)

first things first. tried thai airlines for the first time. of course, just because dear duong will be on the same flight. so had an enjoyable time sharing a long-haul flight with someone u know. still rmb the last time i took a flight to london with someone i know was with ... anyway. they gave us real orchid on thai. not bad but i think i could do much better with more practical souvenirs. practical. yea thats taurus.

and then. our flat. much better than i thought. cuz its cheap and BIG. yep. oh except the decorations. a bit plain and boring. we have yellow walls and green carpets. was super impressed the first time i saw it. :) people visit meee~! large room to accommodate all of uuu. oh but ken has a bigger room. she has an enormous room. but im satisfied. i have a big table. hahaha. i like big tables. and i have small table for all my bottles of shiseido, laneige, origins, chanel etc etc.

1. view from my door.
2. view from my mirrored-door cupboard (which is of course not visible) and thats the door to the balcony linking my and ken's rooms.
3. my dear friends and family and whatever other interesting stuff i can find. (and i found out that i havent got enough pics. all since digital camera was invented.
mmm. looks small on the pics. oh well. its not. well big enough to be a nice double room for me and anyone whos coming.

to top it off, we have been having nice dinners for every single day since im back ~~thanks to me mostly~~. pretty fun. below is our first dinner. roast beef with carrots, tomatoes with egg, ~~brinjal~~ aubergine in that fish sauce (how the hell do u say yu xiang qie zi). super nice.

uMmm. oh yea. i have a super cute tutor who claimed that i look familiar. er. no way but hes DAMN cute. like keanu reeves. goshhhhhhh. ><" almost died when i saw him. but hes gonna make me talk like hell in pds cuz hes found out that im so quiet. oh nOoo. dun wannnnn. i hate all those cigarette-addicts and i-think-im-too-cool-for-u assholes in our group. not everyone. but some. oh well. i'll have to learn how to deal with that.

and on a random note, heres an interesting sight i saw yesterday.

yea. u guys know that INNOCENT brand of yoghurt drinks??!!! its there right outside Bloomsbury Cafe yesterday when me and my friend were walking past. mi god. its sOooo cute. they even had a bottle stuck to it. the huge one. and full of grass or whatever the green stuff is. and their logo in white. ahahahhahaa. sOooo cute. and well there were so many pple and cars around but i still took it with my phone. haha. must have looked so stupid but who cares. i think im getting the TINA-DISEASE.

anyway. im surprised that this wireless internet is still keeping me going. it even let me upload all those photos at NOT-TOO-SLOW speed. ahaha. i love wireless. but i hope they dont catch me or stop it cuz then i would hafta wait till nx tue when the stupid telewest man comes. those idiots are sOooo inefficient. take sOoo long to get me my internet. cant believe su-yin already got hers. and she applied like what.. last fri??? at the freshers fayre. crap. ive been waiting for almost a month. arghhhhhh. and that has kept me away from my dear frog prince for more than 2 weeks. god~! so pissed.

haha but happy things > unhappy ones at the moment. theyre sending me my new phone tomorrow. will update all of u on the new number. meanwhile. new address is:
32 Grasmere
Osnaburgh St
London NW1 3QL

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 10:35:31 GMT

sometimes i wonder if i could actually count the number of things i missed in life. got dragged down to hwa chong institution yesterday by huijie. my first step in a JC in sg. the feeling, after i got inside, was indescribable. suddenly made me realise what ive missed all these years being stuck in a secluded little town in the countryside in the UK. floods of memories came back. esp those in rgs, maybe cuz the campus feeling is almost the same. nyps was too long ago, and somehow its different since we were back in the dilapidated old campus up on the 'hill'. whereas now theyve got the big spacious beautiful high-tech new campus oweing to our (the ex-pupils') generous donations, somewhere where lucky people like my bro proudly belongs. yea so back to HCI. it had the same empty, open feeling like RG. in terms of space i mean. everyone gets their own private space. theyve actually got class benches. i mean, come on. a bench for your class. and i would say, specially for your class and no one else. that's where you bond with the rest of your classmates whenever you feel like it. and then if there comes a yandao lad or a big-boobs girl from next door, you would know.

you see people everywhere. classrooms, labs, cafeteria, class benches, quad, student lounges blah blah. playing, studying, chatting, laughing, romancing. some simply relaxing. laughters and memories. but above the din you can feel your own presence in small isolated areas, catering to the tranquility you long for in times of extreme tiredness and unstability. its a place that feels so secure and peaceful.

i see people the same age as me and i feel sad. somehow. i keep thinking thats where i should belong. i dont like the feeling of 'old' or 'more experienced in life'. fake consoling words for pathetic people with more wrinkles on their faces. i didnt like the feeling of HJ's friends' faces when i was introduced as a medical student studying in the UK. not that im denying that im proud of this fact, but to be honest, i do not feel that im standing in a much better position that they are now. but of course they would not understand that given that theyre now probably worrying about uni applications right now anyway. i can assume that getting out of prelims and uni applications would be topping their list of 'MOST WANTED+DESIRABLE ACTIONS'.

that made me realise. we are always complaining. whatever position/situation we're in life, we're never satisfied. things always seem to be better for others than for ourselves. im so tired of these but i have to admit that i cant get away from the most fundamental human characteristics.

now i regret not crashing at RJC last time xf and shermyn invited me to do so. i bet it'd be just as memorable.